Would you care to say where you live? It may be possible that there others of similar outlook, or even a Christian meeting, are within your reach.
I strongly recommend that you think about attending the next residential meeting of the Quaker Theological Discussion Group; this organization is supposed to hold a conference next summer, probably in June. It is a great opportunity to "network" with other Christian Friends.
I discovered that Mark Wutka has reprinted Joseph Hoag's journal, with an index. The item is available at Amazon
and the price is extremely reasonable.
Joseph and his wife Huldah were faithful Friends, and lived in the Champlain Valley, where I grew up. (We sometimes visit the obscure and mostly untended cemetery in Vermont where they and some 0f their kin are buried.) They were both ministers, and seven of their ten children also became Friends' ministers! Joseph was rather controversial because of his outspoken opposition to Hicks and Gurney, but his journal is still quite good. Paradoxically, his son Joseph Hoag later became a Gurneyite minister!
I also recommend *Quaker Religious Thought*, published by the Quaker Theological Discussion Group. They have a great package deal for the entire set of issues at a reasonable price.
*Quaker Theology* is also an interesting publication; it represents a broad spectrum of Friends, including non-Christians. This journal may be viewed online.
I would be happy to recommend other Friends' memoirs if you find exploring this genre worthwhile.
At the risk of "blowing my own horn", which I really don't approve of, let me suggest my essay on "Cyrus Cooper and the Free Gospel Ministry", *Quaker History*, Spring, 2000, as a way of learning about traditional Conservative Quakerism.
I also recommend reading some ministers' journals. If you want some specific suggestions, I could give you some.
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